The Beautiful Monster

I wish I had a stronger inner voice

Sometimes I feel that I have no weight in my words. This is weird to explain but if I had to fight for an idea of mine to be respected and listened to I don’t think I could do it because I don’t have a strong enough presentation. I’ve never had to defend myself before or stand up against adversity to prove myself to other people. Growing up, I had no challenges with my parents and my childhood was a protected nursery without any need to shout, “Hey, YOU! Listen to what I’m saying because I am WORTHY and IMPORTANT!”. Now it feels like that I’ve grown up without an important part of me. There’s drive but no power. I can’t shout or stand up tall for something I believe in front of people.